muddyboots wrote:
Gary and I talked about our mutual depression a couple of times and I asked him to please contact me before he did anything bad. He hadn't hinted at it but I know this disease and I know how badly it can affect you. I'm sorry he is gone. I am sorry it beat him. I have tears in my eyes as I type this.
But there isn't much any of us could have really done. He needed a lot more help than we could have done over the phone or even in person. Please don't think you could have somehow pulled a fireball out of your tailpipe and somehow saved him. Depression is just a monster and when it comes in the night, we're all on our own. I don't know if he ever sought help--I urged him to but refusing to accept help is one of the problems that comes with this thing.
Just please, if you only take one thing from this learn the lesson that depression is real, that people who truly suffer from it aren't making it up or just being sensitive. It hits and it hurts and it kills the best of us. Someone you know is still alive, and still suffering in silence.
Rest in peace Gary.
Clay James
As I scan through this and deal with the shock I am numb.
Gary took me in on a visit this past summer.
He talked of the demons he faced, both the human and financial, and he seemed to have the fight in him to beat them back.
I too wish I could have done something more.
I will remember the humor and knowledge he brought to this industry and his friends.
His passing leaves a deep and dark hole.
Gary, we'll miss you.
Rich